Sadya talagang makulay at nakaka-intriga ang kulturang Pinoy...
Last Saturday night eh di kami umuwi ng family ko and nag-stay lang kami sa Malate Church, dun kasi yung wake ng Tito Edwin ko eh. So yon, normal lang, maraming korona dyan (in fairness, bigtime yung mga nagbigay ng korona sa kanya...merong galing kay Arroyo, Lapid, Pimentel, at yung pinaka-bongga eh yung galing kay "colleague" Manny Villar -- yes guys, CPA si Villar! Idol!). May ilaw, may kabaong (malamang), maraming tao, may kape, maraming pagkain, at shempre hindi mawawala ang kornik, green peas at ang paborito ng lahat -- butong pakwan.
Labas pasok yung mga tao sa loob. Shempre we don't mind naman kasi magkakakilala kami. Tas gulat kami, biglang out of the blue eh may 2 Koreano (mag-boyfriend sila) na pumasok sa loob...and they're looking around with an astonished expression. So kami, parang "may kakilala ba silang mga Koreano?" so di na namin pinansin, but nagtaka rin kami, pati yung mismong family ni Tito Edwin eh hindi sila kilala...so wala lang, talagang pumasok lang sila sa loob! Hehehe...
Pinoy hospitality...syempre inalok nila ng coffee and food. They said they wanted coffee, then they started quarreling dahil sa baryang ibabayad for the coffee. Yung mga kumag kong pinsan nagtatawanan na sa likod nila. So kami, sinabi nalang namin na "Oh, it's free". So yon, upo sila, tingin-tingin habang umiinom ng kape, turu-turo ng kung anu-ano, yung mga Pinoy naman tawa ng tawa.
At eto yung nakakahibang...nag-picture-taking pa silang 2 with the infamous "Koreanovela Pose" ("peace" fingers)!
Then later on eh super nag-thank you naman sila.
Wala lang. Nakakagulat lang talaga na out of the blue eh pumasok sila sa isang wake. :D
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THE GREAT ORACLE
Not your average everyday sane psycho supergoddes
Mood
Vibes
: Hawt!
: Home
: Sleeveless top and big shorts
: I need MONEY!
: Severus Snape
: My current employer
: Alkaline Water. Sweet!
: Nothing. Actually craving for McDonald's Large Fries + gravy
: 1983 by Neon Trees
: NONE
: B-R-O-K-E!
ANATOMY
PART ONE: The Basics
Online Identity: The Great Oracle
Gender: Female
Relationship Status: Single
Birthday: December 30th
Astrological Sign: Capricorn
Year of the: Tiger
Alumna of: University of Santo Tomas
Course: Bachelor of Science in Accountancy
Occupation: Certified Public Accountant
Religion: Catholicism
Race/lineage: Asian - Filipina with Spanish and Chinese blood
Location: North Caloocan, Philippines
Affiliations: Philippine Institute of Certified Public Accountants (PICPA)
PART TWO: Appearance
Height: 5' 4" (163 cm)
Weight: 46 kgs.
Eyes: Dark Brown
Vision: No assisted eyewear
Hair Color: Black Brown
Hair Style: Straight - Long
Skin Tone: Tan
Best Feature: Lips
Clothing Pref.: Conservative
Tattoo Info: Does stick-on tattoos count?
Piercing Info: 1 on each ear
PART THREE: Personal Favorites
Books: Harry Potter Series, The Da Vinci Code, Angels & Demons, Digital Fortress, The Alchemist, Purpose-Driven Life, The Count of Monte Cristo, Les Miserables, A Clockwork Orange, Frankenstein, The Diary of Anne Frank, Pride and Prejudice, The Gospel according to Jesus Christ
Authors: JRR Tolkien, JK Rowling, Dan Brown, Victor Hugo, Anne Frank, Paulo Coelho, Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley
Music Genres: Rock Music Genres
Bands/Artists: Evanescence, Garbage, Greenday, No Doubt, Blur, Ciara, Prodigy, Matchbox 20, POD, Nirvana, U2, The Calling, Foo Fighters, Incubus, System of a Down, The Killers, Gorillaz, Korn, Limp Bizkit, Audioslave, Coldplay, Franz Ferdinand, Metallica, Lenny Kravitz, Marilyn Manson, etcetera.
Albums/CDs: My CD Collection
TV Shows: The Apprentice, Prison Break, Kyle XY, World Wrestling Entertainment(WWE), MTV, MYX, Knock First, Hunter x Hunter, Queer Eye, Charmed, Smallville, Alias, Arrested Development, House, Nip/Tuck, CSI, Desperate Housewives, etc.
Movies: The Passion of Christ, Lord Of The Rings Trilogy, Harry Potter Series, The Matrix Trilogy, So Close, S1mone, Love Actually, My Best Friend's Wedding, The Wedding Singer, Armageddon, Braveheart, What Lies Beneath, Underworld, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Van Helsing, Hot Chick, White Chicks, The Fast & The Furious, 2Fast 2Furious, etc.
Actors / Actresses: Kate Beckinsale, Eva Longoria, Zhao Wei, Jake Gyllenhall, Adam Sandler, Sean Biggerstaff, Lindsay Lohan, Rachael Leigh Cook, Johnny Depp, Freddie Prinze Jr., Keira Knightley, Keannu Reeves, Daniel Radcliffe, Winona Ryder, Julia Roberts, Sandra Bullock, Drew Barrymore, Alan Rickman, Ian McKellen, etc.
Games: Final Fantasy Series and The Sims
Sports: Basketball, Softball, Quidditch
Colors: Black, Blue, Red, White
Pets/Animals: Oreo -- my pet Maltese
Food: Some Vegetables, Ice Cream, Pizza, Pasta, Chocolates, Beef Caldereta, Beef and Mushroom, Fish Fillet with Tartar Sauce, Siomai, Starbuck's Choco & Mocha Frappe, French Fries, Burgers, etcetera...I love eating fatty foods...haha!
Drink: Water, Gatorade, Vodka, Red Wine, White Wine
Quotes: "Victory is always possible for a person who refused to stop fighting."
Interests: Eats, drinks, and breathes Accounting | my bed | movie marathon | malling & window shopping | doodles | animes | stars | cartoons | bass guitar | drums | wee hours | photography | drawing | rock music | the boob tube | TiVo | music | games | food trip | books | blogging | designing layouts| html | keyboards | personal computer | the cyberspace | jeans | tees | dancing | martial arts | mandarin
PART FOUR: In A Nutshell
adj. Trademark - the "boyish" walk | the Garfield-ish eyes
adj. WYSIWYG (What you see is what you get) - I feel natural, I act natural. No pretentions, no masks, just the plain, real me.
adj. Perfectly Imperfect - procrastinates until the last minute to do anything | grade - conscious but doesn't make the effort to improve them | temperamental | can sometimes be too opinionated | cruel at times | stubborn | indolent | harsh to the people she abhors | forgives but never forgets
adj. Outlier - beyond the average! (Haha!)
adj. Living paradox - queen of irony | has a love - hate relationship with challenges | sometimes optimistic, sometimes pessimistic | sometimes mediocre, sometimes an expert | shy & introverted but friendly & approachable | always wants what she can't have
adj. Weird (in better terms, unique) - a complex mixture of different qualities in one creature : God - fearing | family - centered | unica hija | homebuddy | boyish | simple | creative | childlike but is never childish | cynical about love | wants to be independent | open - minded | responsible | practical | honest | observant | as unpredictable as life can get
ME, MYSELF, & I
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2:36 AM - Friday, August 22, 2008
Kapag minamalas ka nga naman...
2:08 AM
Or kapat nae-engot ka naman...
Umiral na naman yung ka-engotan ko kaninang umaga.
Magkahalo kasi yung pila ng MRT at Cubao sa Deparo. At sobrang late na ako (7 na ako nakasakay ng fx) kaya siguro parang bangag na ako. Hayan may dumating na fx. Ang dinig ko talaga eh MRT (kasi napansin ko rin yung isang mamang madalas kong makasabay sa MRT fx eh sumakay rin kaya sakay naman ako!)
Tas gulat ako pagdating sa Agham Road hindi kumanan papuntang Quezon Ave (eh kasi natutulog sa biyahe eh) tas di hintay lang ako, baka sa iba dadaan. Tas nagtaka ako New York Cubao na...pagtingin ko wala na yung mamang nakakasabay ko pa-MRT (feeling ko bumaba siya sa may North Avenue McDo...patulog-tulog kasi eh) so ayan nagpanic na ako (pero di ako nagpahalata).
Ayon na nga...8am na, office hours na at nasa Cubao ako. Eh badtrip sa lahat ng station ng MRT sa Cubao pinakamahirap sumakay...medyo warfreak at may pagka-Amazona yung mga babaeng pasahero dun eh grabe makatulak...at kapag sa Cubao ka sumakay eh puno na yung train ng mga galing North, Quezon Ave at GMA-Kamuning...buti nalang kahit papaano eh pinakain ako ng almusal ng nanay ko at nakapag-isip ako. :D
Sa Cubao, sumakay ako ng MRT train pa-North...tas pagdating sa North eh medyo sumimple ako sa mga gwardya para makatawid sa kabilang side...medyo napansin nga ako nung 1 gwardya at tinawag ako pero super dead-ma nalang ako kunyari (hindi ako nag-swipe ng card). Tas yon, buti nalang at nakasakay ako agad...Syempre first station. :D
Bottom line: SUPER LATE parin ako. 9am na, nakakahiya. Buti hindi ako nakita ng boss ko.
Yun lang. Ni-share ko lang.
Umiral na naman yung ka-engotan ko kaninang umaga.
Magkahalo kasi yung pila ng MRT at Cubao sa Deparo. At sobrang late na ako (7 na ako nakasakay ng fx) kaya siguro parang bangag na ako. Hayan may dumating na fx. Ang dinig ko talaga eh MRT (kasi napansin ko rin yung isang mamang madalas kong makasabay sa MRT fx eh sumakay rin kaya sakay naman ako!)
Tas gulat ako pagdating sa Agham Road hindi kumanan papuntang Quezon Ave (eh kasi natutulog sa biyahe eh) tas di hintay lang ako, baka sa iba dadaan. Tas nagtaka ako New York Cubao na...pagtingin ko wala na yung mamang nakakasabay ko pa-MRT (feeling ko bumaba siya sa may North Avenue McDo...patulog-tulog kasi eh) so ayan nagpanic na ako (pero di ako nagpahalata).
Ayon na nga...8am na, office hours na at nasa Cubao ako. Eh badtrip sa lahat ng station ng MRT sa Cubao pinakamahirap sumakay...medyo warfreak at may pagka-Amazona yung mga babaeng pasahero dun eh grabe makatulak...at kapag sa Cubao ka sumakay eh puno na yung train ng mga galing North, Quezon Ave at GMA-Kamuning...buti nalang kahit papaano eh pinakain ako ng almusal ng nanay ko at nakapag-isip ako. :D
Sa Cubao, sumakay ako ng MRT train pa-North...tas pagdating sa North eh medyo sumimple ako sa mga gwardya para makatawid sa kabilang side...medyo napansin nga ako nung 1 gwardya at tinawag ako pero super dead-ma nalang ako kunyari (hindi ako nag-swipe ng card). Tas yon, buti nalang at nakasakay ako agad...Syempre first station. :D
Bottom line: SUPER LATE parin ako. 9am na, nakakahiya. Buti hindi ako nakita ng boss ko.
Yun lang. Ni-share ko lang.
HBP Spoiler! Badtrip!
2:08 AM - Wednesday, August 20, 2008
'Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince' Release Pushed Back To Summer
By Jennifer Vineyard (MTV.com)
Don't expect any boy wizards to make box-office magic this year. Though a teaser trailer for it just came out a few weeks ago, the sixth film in the series, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, will not be coming out in November after all. Warner Bros. announced Thursday (August 14) that it's pushing back the release date of the film to July 17, 2009.
The studio said that it had reconsidered the timing based on the overall market as well as the recent writers' strike.
"Our reasons for shifting Half-Blood Prince to summer are twofold," Warner Bros. President and Chief Operating Officer Alan Horn said in a statement. "We know the summer season is an ideal window for a family tent-pole release, as proven by the success of our last Harry Potter film [released July 11, 2007], which is the second-highest-grossing film in the franchise, behind only the first installment."
Horn added that "like every other studio," Warner Bros. was still "feeling the repercussions of the writers' strike," which had affected scripts for other films, and changed "the competitive landscape for 2009." Because of this, the studio felt next summer was a "new window of opportunity" for the franchise. The film's producer, David Heyman, concurred, saying that this would allow them to "reach the widest possible audience."
Entertainment Weekly had already put Harry Potter himself, Daniel Radcliffe, on the cover of this week's fall movies preview issue, on newsstands Friday. However, the studio was quick to dispel any speculation that the film was behind schedule or that the release-date change would affect anything in the film itself.
"The release-date change does not alter the production schedule for this or future Harry Potter films," Warner Bros. Motion Picture Group President Jeff Robinov said in a statement. "Post-production on Half-Blood Prince was completed on time, and the studio's release plans for the two-part Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows will not be affected by this change."
"I am extremely proud of this latest film and of the work of [director] David Yates and our incomparable cast," Heyman said in a statement. "I believe we have developed and pushed the series further still. We are all looking forward to sharing it with Harry Potter fans around the world, even if we have to wait just a bit longer."
The delay is actually "good news" for fans, Robinov said, since it also means "the gap will now be shortened" between the release of Half-Blood Prince and the first installment of Deathly Hallows.
"Even as we put finishing touches on this latest film," Yates said in a statement, "we are already beginning preparations on the final two films ... and I am excited to bring this remarkable series to the exciting and moving conclusion its loyal fans deserve."
Because of the change in release date, the studio will likely cut a new trailer as well, though a release date for that remains undetermined. Filming for the first part of Deathly Hallows starts in February.
--> Crap! I've been waiting for this movie for ages! I thought 2008 will be a blast because of The Dark Knight, Iron Man, HBP and Angels & Demons....sad to say HBP's moved to 2009. Damn Warner Bros.! Rawrrrrrrr!!!!!!! I don't care how small the time gap is between the showing of HBP and DH, I just want to see HBP ASAP!
By Jennifer Vineyard (MTV.com)
Don't expect any boy wizards to make box-office magic this year. Though a teaser trailer for it just came out a few weeks ago, the sixth film in the series, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, will not be coming out in November after all. Warner Bros. announced Thursday (August 14) that it's pushing back the release date of the film to July 17, 2009.
The studio said that it had reconsidered the timing based on the overall market as well as the recent writers' strike.
"Our reasons for shifting Half-Blood Prince to summer are twofold," Warner Bros. President and Chief Operating Officer Alan Horn said in a statement. "We know the summer season is an ideal window for a family tent-pole release, as proven by the success of our last Harry Potter film [released July 11, 2007], which is the second-highest-grossing film in the franchise, behind only the first installment."
Horn added that "like every other studio," Warner Bros. was still "feeling the repercussions of the writers' strike," which had affected scripts for other films, and changed "the competitive landscape for 2009." Because of this, the studio felt next summer was a "new window of opportunity" for the franchise. The film's producer, David Heyman, concurred, saying that this would allow them to "reach the widest possible audience."
Entertainment Weekly had already put Harry Potter himself, Daniel Radcliffe, on the cover of this week's fall movies preview issue, on newsstands Friday. However, the studio was quick to dispel any speculation that the film was behind schedule or that the release-date change would affect anything in the film itself.
"The release-date change does not alter the production schedule for this or future Harry Potter films," Warner Bros. Motion Picture Group President Jeff Robinov said in a statement. "Post-production on Half-Blood Prince was completed on time, and the studio's release plans for the two-part Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows will not be affected by this change."
"I am extremely proud of this latest film and of the work of [director] David Yates and our incomparable cast," Heyman said in a statement. "I believe we have developed and pushed the series further still. We are all looking forward to sharing it with Harry Potter fans around the world, even if we have to wait just a bit longer."
The delay is actually "good news" for fans, Robinov said, since it also means "the gap will now be shortened" between the release of Half-Blood Prince and the first installment of Deathly Hallows.
"Even as we put finishing touches on this latest film," Yates said in a statement, "we are already beginning preparations on the final two films ... and I am excited to bring this remarkable series to the exciting and moving conclusion its loyal fans deserve."
Because of the change in release date, the studio will likely cut a new trailer as well, though a release date for that remains undetermined. Filming for the first part of Deathly Hallows starts in February.
--> Crap! I've been waiting for this movie for ages! I thought 2008 will be a blast because of The Dark Knight, Iron Man, HBP and Angels & Demons....sad to say HBP's moved to 2009. Damn Warner Bros.! Rawrrrrrrr!!!!!!! I don't care how small the time gap is between the showing of HBP and DH, I just want to see HBP ASAP!
Loser Loser Loser!!!!!!!!!!
8:47 AM - Saturday, August 09, 2008
Now I think I can officially use "L" as my official nickname.
Nope, it's not like "L Lawliet" from the anime series Death Note.
The "L" that I am talking about stands for the word "LOSER".
I dunno, but right now I feel that I am definitely the crappiest, most useless and worthless douchebag in the universe.
My career and love life's all SCREWED up.
Okay. Let us first talk about my ever-fukcing career as an accountant. Yep, I'm thankful that I have a job, but I don't know, I'm soooooooo not fulfilled. I'm bored to tears.
First, there's NO CAREER GROWTH. Yes, I'm already a regular employee and I've been promoted to the next position to the CFO. We used to be 4 in the team handling the accounts of 4 companies, and I, being the newest in the group, is the lowest in the hierarchy. And due to this promotion, we were separated into 2 groups, each group handling 2 companies each. My partner is handling the management side (internal) and I'm in charge with Government dealings (external). And we're all in the same level - so that means I'm not the last in the hierarchy anymore (basically due to the fact that there isn't any ladder, eh).
So if I stayed there and worked for that company until I'm old eh I will be staying in that post forever. I've asked those who have been working for the company for 7 years and up and they told me that up to now they are still handling the same job/tasks since Adam! Gosh!
Also, I really can't moon over the CFO position. That company is a family business. The heads of each department (including my CFO boss) are the children of the owner; therefore even if I worked so effing hard I won't be able to rise to that position; Consider also the fact that her daughter is planning to take up BS Accountancy too. Most likely, she'll be the one to replace her mother when she passes the board. Unfair, eh?!
Another is that there's NO PROFESSIONAL DEVELOPMENT. In some companies, they give their employees training, seminars, updates on accounting standards, policies, etc. (and fortunately, most of them are PICPA certified, therefore they are gaining the required CPE units). In the company that I am working for their aren't any of the above. It really sucks.
Earlier, I had a date with my college friends. And I was really envious. I mean, all three of them are working for very prominent companies - 2 of them are from the "pinakasikat na auditing firm sa Pilipinas" and one is working for the global shared service of one of the top banks in the world. They're talking about certain things and I can't relate. I felt left out. It's as if they've already risen 10 levels since they passed the board and I am still in the same level when I passed - no professional growth or any type of growth whatsoever.
And of course they are complaining about overtimes, toxic work, cranky bosses, small salaries that never compensate the hardships and efforts that they exerted, yaddah, yaddah, yaddah. And of course I am with them.
Overtimes are a part of a worker's life, I believe. And then the toxic work, well, of course everything is toxic in the corporate world. It is dynamic and therefore you have to catch up. Cranky bosses suck, yes. Yuu are working your arse off and they'd still shout profanities at you. Small salaries, HELL YES, we've studied super extra hard since college and with the degree and license that we possess, I believe we deserve more than we're actually getting.
Okay, my salary is small, my job is boring and routinary, but thankfully, my boss is great. But you see, I MISS THE CHALLENGE! I am used to the torture (wow strong play of words, huh?!) of UST-AMV COA and I miss testing my capabilities to the limit; I miss thinking about problems and formulating solutions. I miss logical thinking and analysis. I miss putting up with toxic work and meeting deadlines. Hayyyyyyyy...challenges spice up our lives.
Don't get me wrong, I'm no masochistic freak that dreams of being flayed alive due to the degree of difficulty of my job; I just want some complexity in my work.
Sometimes, due to the brainless and boring nature of my work I feel that my IQ is slowly degenerating and my accounting knowledge have been stagnant. No new knowledge, no new anything.
Also, I HAVE TO PUT FOOD ON THE TABLE. Yes, my mom's already retired, so my dad and I are the only ones working. Shempre you really can't depend on my dad's salary; It's common knowledge that teachers are not justly compensated for the efforts that they've been exerting. And what's worse is that he's about to retire in 5 years, so in 5 years time I have to find a really stable job.
Of course I am taking measures to upgrading my career. And yes, I've tried my luck in applying for certain companies that I know will be able to give me the career growth, professional development and generous salary that I am aiming for. But you see, NOT ALL PEOPLE ARE LUCKY WHEN IT COMES TO APPLYING FOR A JOB. Yes, I pass the prospective employers' exams (with flying colors...haha!) but I ALWAYS SCREW THINGS UP DURING INTERVIEWS. Public speaking (or speaking, in general) have been my WATERLOO for the longest time. Unfortunately, I haven't learned how to calm myself and my nerves are always killing me. And I strongly believe that this is the weakness that have been plaguing me since I started looking for a job.
Oh, hell.
It's a wonder why some people can easily enter their dreams jobs (whether with or without back-up help) and I, for the longest time, is always struggling in this department. Maybe I was born with some kind of curse related to job-hunting.
Another story is my lovelife. Ah, sweet love. Super ironic.
No, I'm not in a hurry and I'm not YET desperate. I'm just 21 and there still is plenty of time to look for that one destined to be with you for the rest of your life (if there is really such thing). But you see, I don't know but with the taste of men nowadays I don't think I'll be able to make a guy look twice at me.
I mean, I'm not much to look at; I'm totally honest with myself that I'm no beauty. And I don't have the body to kill for. I actually don't have the personality (I'm not flirtatious; I'm shy - and due to my fierce appearance people tend to misunderstand my shyness as "kasopladahan") because I'm the type who doesn't spontaneously open up - I study the person's attitude and preferences first and then plan my how-to-get-along-with-you approach to get very acquainted with him/her. Most people don't really have good first impressions on me, and I think it adds up to the complexity of my character.
And honestly, I don't think I still have the courage to love (haha) again. I fell in love too many times in the past and 90% are UNREQUITED. Yes, I'm the "torpe" type, just waiting for the wind to blow in my direction, but the fates aren't conniving with me. I don't think I can bear another heartbreak.
Sometimes, I blame the fall of my romantic life to my juvenile mistakes in the past -- I've hurt my 2 past boyfriends, albeit unconsciously. I'm TOO IMMATURE then. Of course I'm very repentant about it now that I have realized my faults. But you see, the world works in a way that you get to pay for the past sins that you did TENFOLD. Maybe I'm not done paying the price yet.
During those times that I was still suffering from the pain of unreciprocated attentions,I often wonder, how come these "PLAYERS" can have soooo many lovers and change them as often as they change clothes, when some romantic, serious people only pine for that one great love and yet they can't have it?
And now, I'm so cynical about love and all. I realized that life's more peaceful without having to worry if your crush also harbors a secret crush on you. Soooo high school.
Oh great, now I'm being too maudlin.
And of course, I always ask God. Ooops, that's an understatement. I QUESTION GOD. Yep, I know I am such an arse but sometimes I can't help it. He might as well beat me with a stick and send me straight to hell.
But I've heard that we just have to trust HIM because He's never late and always on time; That He doesn't give us everything that our hearts desire because it may not be good for us, or it is not in His plan, or He's got a better plan.
Oh God, I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooo confused. I'm sooo not happy with my life right now.
Earlier, my mom and dad just came from their M.E. seminar and they're like, "Oh anak, mag-usap tayo, mag-share ka sa amin ng mga problema mo...". I was so damn tempted to open the floodgates, spill the beans and cry like a baby...asking my mom and dad for some help. But I dunno, I just don't want them to know the predicament that I am in. I don't want them to worry about petty things such as these.
And then I smiled. I may not have my dream job and a boyfriend but I've got an almost-perfect family. As said, cherish everything while you have them. Maybe my life's not super screwed-up as I first thought.
Nope, it's not like "L Lawliet" from the anime series Death Note.
The "L" that I am talking about stands for the word "LOSER".
I dunno, but right now I feel that I am definitely the crappiest, most useless and worthless douchebag in the universe.
My career and love life's all SCREWED up.
Okay. Let us first talk about my ever-fukcing career as an accountant. Yep, I'm thankful that I have a job, but I don't know, I'm soooooooo not fulfilled. I'm bored to tears.
First, there's NO CAREER GROWTH. Yes, I'm already a regular employee and I've been promoted to the next position to the CFO. We used to be 4 in the team handling the accounts of 4 companies, and I, being the newest in the group, is the lowest in the hierarchy. And due to this promotion, we were separated into 2 groups, each group handling 2 companies each. My partner is handling the management side (internal) and I'm in charge with Government dealings (external). And we're all in the same level - so that means I'm not the last in the hierarchy anymore (basically due to the fact that there isn't any ladder, eh).
So if I stayed there and worked for that company until I'm old eh I will be staying in that post forever. I've asked those who have been working for the company for 7 years and up and they told me that up to now they are still handling the same job/tasks since Adam! Gosh!
Also, I really can't moon over the CFO position. That company is a family business. The heads of each department (including my CFO boss) are the children of the owner; therefore even if I worked so effing hard I won't be able to rise to that position; Consider also the fact that her daughter is planning to take up BS Accountancy too. Most likely, she'll be the one to replace her mother when she passes the board. Unfair, eh?!
Another is that there's NO PROFESSIONAL DEVELOPMENT. In some companies, they give their employees training, seminars, updates on accounting standards, policies, etc. (and fortunately, most of them are PICPA certified, therefore they are gaining the required CPE units). In the company that I am working for their aren't any of the above. It really sucks.
Earlier, I had a date with my college friends. And I was really envious. I mean, all three of them are working for very prominent companies - 2 of them are from the "pinakasikat na auditing firm sa Pilipinas" and one is working for the global shared service of one of the top banks in the world. They're talking about certain things and I can't relate. I felt left out. It's as if they've already risen 10 levels since they passed the board and I am still in the same level when I passed - no professional growth or any type of growth whatsoever.
And of course they are complaining about overtimes, toxic work, cranky bosses, small salaries that never compensate the hardships and efforts that they exerted, yaddah, yaddah, yaddah. And of course I am with them.
Overtimes are a part of a worker's life, I believe. And then the toxic work, well, of course everything is toxic in the corporate world. It is dynamic and therefore you have to catch up. Cranky bosses suck, yes. Yuu are working your arse off and they'd still shout profanities at you. Small salaries, HELL YES, we've studied super extra hard since college and with the degree and license that we possess, I believe we deserve more than we're actually getting.
Okay, my salary is small, my job is boring and routinary, but thankfully, my boss is great. But you see, I MISS THE CHALLENGE! I am used to the torture (wow strong play of words, huh?!) of UST-AMV COA and I miss testing my capabilities to the limit; I miss thinking about problems and formulating solutions. I miss logical thinking and analysis. I miss putting up with toxic work and meeting deadlines. Hayyyyyyyy...challenges spice up our lives.
Don't get me wrong, I'm no masochistic freak that dreams of being flayed alive due to the degree of difficulty of my job; I just want some complexity in my work.
Sometimes, due to the brainless and boring nature of my work I feel that my IQ is slowly degenerating and my accounting knowledge have been stagnant. No new knowledge, no new anything.
Also, I HAVE TO PUT FOOD ON THE TABLE. Yes, my mom's already retired, so my dad and I are the only ones working. Shempre you really can't depend on my dad's salary; It's common knowledge that teachers are not justly compensated for the efforts that they've been exerting. And what's worse is that he's about to retire in 5 years, so in 5 years time I have to find a really stable job.
Of course I am taking measures to upgrading my career. And yes, I've tried my luck in applying for certain companies that I know will be able to give me the career growth, professional development and generous salary that I am aiming for. But you see, NOT ALL PEOPLE ARE LUCKY WHEN IT COMES TO APPLYING FOR A JOB. Yes, I pass the prospective employers' exams (with flying colors...haha!) but I ALWAYS SCREW THINGS UP DURING INTERVIEWS. Public speaking (or speaking, in general) have been my WATERLOO for the longest time. Unfortunately, I haven't learned how to calm myself and my nerves are always killing me. And I strongly believe that this is the weakness that have been plaguing me since I started looking for a job.
Oh, hell.
It's a wonder why some people can easily enter their dreams jobs (whether with or without back-up help) and I, for the longest time, is always struggling in this department. Maybe I was born with some kind of curse related to job-hunting.
Another story is my lovelife. Ah, sweet love. Super ironic.
No, I'm not in a hurry and I'm not YET desperate. I'm just 21 and there still is plenty of time to look for that one destined to be with you for the rest of your life (if there is really such thing). But you see, I don't know but with the taste of men nowadays I don't think I'll be able to make a guy look twice at me.
I mean, I'm not much to look at; I'm totally honest with myself that I'm no beauty. And I don't have the body to kill for. I actually don't have the personality (I'm not flirtatious; I'm shy - and due to my fierce appearance people tend to misunderstand my shyness as "kasopladahan") because I'm the type who doesn't spontaneously open up - I study the person's attitude and preferences first and then plan my how-to-get-along-with-you approach to get very acquainted with him/her. Most people don't really have good first impressions on me, and I think it adds up to the complexity of my character.
And honestly, I don't think I still have the courage to love (haha) again. I fell in love too many times in the past and 90% are UNREQUITED. Yes, I'm the "torpe" type, just waiting for the wind to blow in my direction, but the fates aren't conniving with me. I don't think I can bear another heartbreak.
Sometimes, I blame the fall of my romantic life to my juvenile mistakes in the past -- I've hurt my 2 past boyfriends, albeit unconsciously. I'm TOO IMMATURE then. Of course I'm very repentant about it now that I have realized my faults. But you see, the world works in a way that you get to pay for the past sins that you did TENFOLD. Maybe I'm not done paying the price yet.
During those times that I was still suffering from the pain of unreciprocated attentions,I often wonder, how come these "PLAYERS" can have soooo many lovers and change them as often as they change clothes, when some romantic, serious people only pine for that one great love and yet they can't have it?
And now, I'm so cynical about love and all. I realized that life's more peaceful without having to worry if your crush also harbors a secret crush on you. Soooo high school.
Oh great, now I'm being too maudlin.
And of course, I always ask God. Ooops, that's an understatement. I QUESTION GOD. Yep, I know I am such an arse but sometimes I can't help it. He might as well beat me with a stick and send me straight to hell.
But I've heard that we just have to trust HIM because He's never late and always on time; That He doesn't give us everything that our hearts desire because it may not be good for us, or it is not in His plan, or He's got a better plan.
For I know what my plans for you, plans to save you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and to give you hope. - Jeremiah 29:11
Oh God, I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooo confused. I'm sooo not happy with my life right now.
Earlier, my mom and dad just came from their M.E. seminar and they're like, "Oh anak, mag-usap tayo, mag-share ka sa amin ng mga problema mo...". I was so damn tempted to open the floodgates, spill the beans and cry like a baby...asking my mom and dad for some help. But I dunno, I just don't want them to know the predicament that I am in. I don't want them to worry about petty things such as these.
And then I smiled. I may not have my dream job and a boyfriend but I've got an almost-perfect family. As said, cherish everything while you have them. Maybe my life's not super screwed-up as I first thought.
Labels: A CPA's Life, God is good -- All the Time, Me-Myself-and-I, Quotable Quotes, The Great Depression
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